Promises and Lies

I wouldn’t do to my colleagues what I sometimes do to my loved ones: making promises, and not living up to my word.

I forget often that “prioritising” is just another fancy word of choosing which is more important. Not for a moment do I believe that ‘work’ is more important than humans. By choosing one thing over another, we simply decide it is worth more to us based on some scale we’ve chosen at that moment, and it might simply have been the wrong scale to measure against.

Joan Baez calls them “tunes of promises you can’t keep”

I’ve caught myself a few times in the last couple of weeks not living up to the promises I’ve made to the most important people in my life. The reasons don’t matter. The emotions do.

I can do better.

Under Pressure

Under pressure.

Not the Queen song of the same name, but how I was feeling this morning as my first meeting of the day/week began. How fascinating, I thought to myself (HT to Ben Zander). I could see all of us in that session wrestle with the ideas we were trying to understand ourselves first, and then put into a series of communications to persuade others of their value.

I took it upon myself to pull something together that gave voice to my perspective. It’s not the complete picture, it’s not pretty, it’s not even sound. I did it in about an hour so I barely had any time to do this right.

When I shared it with a few people (show your work early!), I got useful comments on how it could flow better, and I’m already seeing the value of having done that initial hard slog for an hour. It won’t take too long before it is forged into something much stronger  than it’s original version. I’m glad I had the pressure on me to help me put out an early basic version of those ideas.

Consistency

The weather outside was incentive enough to stay in bed today. It helped that it was Sunday and there were few demands. We binged watched reruns of Seinfeld – and it kept me thinking about how brilliantly the show lines are written.

Consistency, if I remember right, was Seinfeld’s mantra, dispensed to a young comedian Brad Isaac: “He said the way to be a better comic was to create better jokes and the way to create better jokes was to write every day.”

After what was a long day of driving to the big smoke and back, at 10pm, the last thing I want to do is to sit down and write. I know the chain of writing hasn’t been missed, and I was not going to break that today.  I have an accountability buddy who is sending me a quote for my Spencerian writing every day, & I’m not going to let them down because I don’t feel like writing. And given I’m posting that here, I am not going to not write 🙂 (double negatives?!)

I’m grateful for the last week; the decentralisation discussion on Thursday has been a splendid highlight for me. I’m glad that more people are starting to lean in, contribute, speak up, and offer their perspectives in ways I have not seen. That is the best feeling ever.